Let’s talk about my hiatus & why balance is a myth. Back at the end of March, I opened up on Instagram in the caption of this post. I was spread extremely thin and my business got pushed to the back burner. I felt like a failure. I was creatively frustrated. I couldn’t find time and when I found time, I couldn’t find the energy. But, I also randomly got a text from a friend who I hadn’t spoken to in months. This text was filled with everything I didn’t know I needed to hear. Then came April. PHEW. I work in higher education. If you know, you know. April in the world of higher education is no joke. I work at the Entrepreneurship Center on campus. We had our largest event of the year in April. This event is the STATEWIDE entrepreneurship competition that brings students from across the state (high school & university). It was an amazing experience to see the talent these students possess at such a young age. As busy as April was, I finally felt normal again. Now that I’ve had time to unwind in the month of May, I feel like I’m really back in the swing of things. May also marked three months into deployment, which means only half of a year is left! I mention all of this to give you a small glimpse into my “real life” and to let you know that although I was absent, I was empowering & inspiring in a bit of a different way. However, it was also like I had blinked and all of a sudden it had been weeks without creating content for my business.
I gave up the search.
The past year has held a lot of change. Like, big changes. Every time a change happened, I strived to find that balance again. Where are my fellow Type A folks? I needed to find the structure that I was searching for. Sometimes balance works, right? I HAVE DECIDED BALANCE IS NO LONGER FOR ME. There. I said it. I want to mention that what works for me might not work for you. However, the search for balance was leading me down an endless rabbit hole of distress. So, I gave up.
I’ve decided that balance is a myth.
I’ve continued to try and pre-plan or find a balance between business and real-life. I put a lot of pressure on myself for how I was going to “come back” on social media and on the blog. I would say “tonight” or “this weekend” but then I’d sit down to try and make a plan and I’d be overwhelmed with indecision. That’s when it hit me. I was searching for a balance that didn’t exist for me because it turns out that I don’t I think I need balance. I just need to do what I love, which is empower & inspire all of you out there who follow along with Bossy Brushstrokes. Don’t get me wrong… my hiatus was necessary for me. I had worn myself out. I think sometimes entrepreneurship glorifies the hustle and we forget the toll that it can take on us. I’m here to remind you that if you are tired, worn out, and stretched thin… TAKE A BREAK. You deserve it. I’ve decided to stop striving for balance and to instead strive for happiness. The “balance” I have been trying to achieve is going to change with the ebbs & flow of life. My new equation isn’t balance… it’s simplicity… and it is working. For me, balance is a myth right now and ending my search for it has helped me get back to the roots of this business. I’m happy to be back.
Until next time, stay bossy y’all.
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